Dhanurmasam 2023-2024 – EXPERIENCES – DAILY LOG IN BRIEF

Dhanurmasam begins with the entry of Margasira Masam every year.

This year it began on 15^th December 2023. It is also the beginning of Hemantha Ruthuvu.

The writer of this Note in the format of a daily LOG of his experiences are briefly summed up lest they are forgotten.

Day one: Friday 15 Dec. The Prasadam offering at end of the puja infused a feeling of the Sarva Devathalu experiencing satisfactorily. In Telugu “Devathalu Thrupthiga Sweekarinchi Aaraginchina” Bhavana feeling Naalo kaligindi.

Day two: Saturday 16 Dec. There is no room for complaints. You have been given everything. You have also been protected all your life.  The day incidentally coincides with the writers Mother (late Yellamraju Rukminamma garu – [ 1917-1989] ) birthday.

The day’s experiences were somewhat perplexing to the writer. More so, as his daily prayers are devoid of requests, nor complaints; and the devotion in general is seeking union; while being thankful for making me do the daily prayers and accepting them and excusing me for any errors in my phonetics and recitations in honor the individual deities; and also considering God as one and different Devathas only strengthening my views. Continuation of long years of daily prayers make me believe that I am not doing the prayers, but being made to do; and also being done by them, using me as a medium to perform or do.

Day three: Sunday 17 Dec.  Since last evening not feeling well. All the same woke up at 4AM and did the daily prayers. Had difficulty in doing. Could do only with the initiative and assistance of HIM /HER. Lalitha Ammavaru is the ancestral Family Deity of our Yellamraju family. I enjoy doing the daily prayers. I have a general feeling that SHE takes care of my interests and helps in completion on occasions of any indifferent health; and today is no exception and it is one such day of experience.

Day four: Monday 18 Dec. The day’s prayers were less strenuous than the previous day. There were clear signals to do what prayers could be done; and not being conscious of the nausea and it will be taken care. The happiness derived and the satisfaction felt from the daily prayers are signals of the concentration and progress of the goals and objectives tending towards the unification. Also, the duration of the experienced happiness and satisfaction derived are evidences of the impact of contentment ensured by HIM.

Day five: Tuesday 19 Dec. The prayers were more focused. The days thoughts reminded me to strengthen my views of “Taking and accepting Life as it comes”, since HE /SHE know what is best for you; and all the more so as the very path is set by the Almighty. On this day, in the evening took Covid19 Booster Shot.

Day six: Wednesday 20 Dec. Prayers went smoothly. The realization from the prayers of the day tended to think in terms of the Conscience influencing in two forms; One in which conscience being felt with awareness; and Two in which state the conscience is in an unaware state; and in this state one becomes a cog in the wheel set by HIM in the prayerful state; wherein the time shrinks and the mind not fully.

The Covid19 shot taken the previous evening somewhat showed up with health issues of increased backache, headache, rheumatic pains and shivering.

Day Seven: Thursday 21 Dec. The medication of previous night gave some relief and energy to continue the Pre don prayers. The prayers went enthusiastically. Prayers raised the issue of Conscience. Where does the conscience lie; is it in the heart; or is it in the mind; or in-between; and is the feeling a coordinated offshoot of the mind and the heart. My answer tends to the last factor written in the previous sentence.

In other words, it is a coordinated feeling, and not stationary in the body, and is transitory. Thus, without the coordination of the head and the heart and the nervous system linking the two the feeling does not arise. This thinking and understanding leads to the factor of an ‘energy source’ linking the head and heart that causes the feeling of conscience in the individual. Is not this conscience in the individual, the same as the god within the individual causing the behavior and actions of the person experiencing?

If this Energy Source is to be qualified as god, the Energy Source hovering the universe and the galaxy can also be reckoned as god; and since god is considered to be ONE universally; both merge, giving rise to the unification of both. Thus giving the impression of the god within life; and the god outside in space and time are one and the same; the governing factors for the behavior of the individual, and the governing factors for the planetary systems, tend to one and the same.   

These are my views. My experiences from my prayers. My thinking somewhat originating from my long years of scientific pursuits and background. I may be wrong also. My analytical thinking is supported by my prayers. The very thinking is originated by the ‘Energy Source’, and initiated this very concept and writing for the benefit.

Day Eight: Friday 22 Dec. The day is special. In more than one way. The day marks the day of Vaikuntha Yekadasi. An auspicious day. Normally people crave for the darshan of the Lord visiting temples in the very early hours, considering such darshan is good for the wellbeing.  The day also happens to be my mother’s birthday as per the Telugu or Hindu Calendar.

For me the day was special too, since the prayers went exceptionally well, lasting almost four hours and the experiences too were varied and unconceived or imagined.

In continuation of the previous day, the thought process about the Energy Sources described was strengthened. As conceived earlier as two entities, one within, and the second outside. They are linked. However, the energy levels are not the same. They are alike alright. They are similar also. The extraneous energy is much higher than the first, being universal in nature; and extends its influence on the First Energy Source that is within. The impact of the Second described External Energy Source is so large as to support the very existence of the Planets, Planetary Systems such as the Earth being supported by the solar system; The Milky Way; Black Holes; Galaxies; The very Medium of Ether occupying all conceivable Space extending to the Inter-Continental Regions that are known and unknown to the present day sciences. This Second Energy Source has a great influence on the First Energy Source; on individuals, animals, other beings with life in their behavior, habits, etc. The subject of Astrology, Astronomical influences and Predictions therefrom; originated perhaps from such thinking; strengthening the present conceptual analysis.

In the day’s prayers, my attempts to learn about myself with firm belief of the existence of GOD, or the Sources that influence us, and even govern us, and lead us in our individual lives showed some conceivable results. As for example, going into deep prayers; by way of meditation; by way prayers chanting within; by way of chanting openly; by way of total involvement in singing in praise of the Lord; by way of devotional dancing; by way of group singing; by way of total devotion to work; what was experienced by me today is perhaps possible for others to be experienced; when total involvement without diversions, distractions, and setting goals to achieve peace and satisfaction and merging the created with the creator. In my own case, experienced clearly today the distinction between conscious prayers and semiconscious prayers; and the conscious leading to the semiconscious or state of trance; and perhaps when in this state one loses the ‘I’ identity and HE takes over to do the ‘I’ intentions or even the prayers. These are difficult states of the mind requiring constant practice and devoted pursuits with goals to the self and merger with the Almighty who created and as well takes back.

Day 9: Saturday 23 Dec. The day’s prayers were blissful. Rewarding. Satisfactory. Meaningful.

Received a feedback with respect to the previous day viewpoint about the first and second energy sources. The first energy source regulates the individual and as well also causes the aura of the individual. Through the medium of the aura, the first and second energy sources are linked, suggesting the possibility of the said transfer of energy; and also supporting the influence of Nature at large on the individual.

The beauty of prayers in all its known forms; a few of which were mentioned in the text of the previous day lead the individual to a state of the mind helping in the attainment of call it peace, satisfaction, serenity, balanced thinking, solutions to problems suggesting the paths, and progress in pursuits. The prayers also help in the focus of the pursuits. The prayers as well offer the medium of transfer of energy between the two modes of energy and enhancing the positivity in the individual. The hints that automatically crop up, on and off in prayers, are due to the surrender of the individual to the Almighty, because of the subconscious background bothering the person offering the prayers.

Day 10: Sunday 24 Dec. Personally the day’s prayers were highly rewarding and thankful to the Lord. They were completely captivating. Highly satisfactory. The time period of over two hours flipped like a minute and with varied experiences of interactions. A rare derivative opportunity, difficult to put in black and white of the benefit of readers, who may even construe as divergent. May be, one of these days, I may be able to elaborate, if SHE Wills. The word SHE here connotes my intentions, since SHE here represents “Goddess Lalita”, our family Deity receiving devotional prayers through successive generations, and to be specific the writer is of the Third Generation, and he witnessed and also helped the Pujalu of the previous Two Generations; and the influence of them is thankfully acknowledged.

I am trying to describe one such rare experience of today’s prayers; wherein could witness a big lake, the clear blue sky above and over it, the trees around the lake on one side, and the tree tops inverted reflected view of the tree tops and over a discernable time frame. Thoroughly enjoyed what was witnessed thankfully acknowledging Lalitha Ammavaru, since the prayers went without any interruption. I have never before witnessed such an experience. In fact, it was perplexing to me and when I took this witnessed Scenic Beauty that was so thrilling and very fulfilling as an affirmation of my views about the linkage between ‘aatma and paramatha’ hovering in me. Here it should be stated that ‘aatma’ connotes the First Energy Source that is within individuals and in all forms of live beings; while ‘paramathma’ connotes the deity or Almighty.

Day 11: Monday 25 Dec. It is X’mas day.  As usual, the early morning prayers continued. Prayers normally are offered by different people in different ways. Some do it by ‘mananam’ which means the prayers are within one’s self. Some do it openly and orally that could be heard by the person doing and all those around. Mananam can be done where ever one is as it is within the self. Those doing orally are confined to the place of worship.

I prefer the doing of my prayers in both the ways; partly within when it comes to chanting repetitively; and all other prayers orally. In the oral mode whatever prayers are uttered have a multiple effect in the sense that the thinking originating the utterance, followed by the oral presentation by uttering loud and clearly, and then the person doing the prayers himself able to hear and at the same time giving an opportunity for the people around also to listen; and in this mode  the puja performer realizes any mistakes, or omissions, or jumping in a sequence, and as well is able to share with others the prayers; and at the same time giving room to recall any phonetics for an improved utterance thereafter. Closer look at this mode would indicate as doing the prayers three times for each of the utterances unlike the first mode. I have, by and large been stuck to this mode and been enjoying my prayers immensely for several years, say over forty years. I also derive satisfaction by the mode I have chosen.

Day 12: Tuesday 26 Dec. Prayers were peaceful.

Prayers in general carried out through the daily pujalu are pursued without any specific intentions, or requests made out to the Almighty. They are carried out as the least gratitude to the Almighty for this life and its continuity to date; as well as the many things bestowed in life hitherto. Such prayers assured Calmness and composure, Balance in thinking, Positivity in talking and actions, Acceptance of good and bad alike, Joys and Sorrow as realities. Doing the prayers of the day itself is considered as rewarding. Doing the prayers without motives and requests is considered as a duty of life that ensures peace of mind, clarity in thinking, positivity in talking and in actions. Stopping of prayers for any reason leaves a void and with anxiety to resume at the earliest. These are some of the aspects hovering in mind today that came up in today’s writing to share.

The day’s prayers clearly indicated that any subconscious issues bothering are helped with answers and solutions though the prayers, since The Creator knows what is best to the individual than himself. This belief eases the individual by banking on the Creator.

Day 13. Wednesday 27 Dec. Prayers continued piously and peacefully.

Prayers of the day hinted the incompleteness of the account given about the oral open uttering of the prayers. While it has already been said that the prayers through oral performance reach others and their participation without disturbing the person doing rituals and the puja; the important aspect of the oral presentation of prayers and the resultant Sound Vibrations not only reach the interested persons, but also reach the environs transferring in general sound energy to Nature; a positive factor that is not possible in first mode of silent prayers within one’s own self.

Another aspect experienced on this day is about the fact that the prayers and the impact of the prayers is not the same in the day to day prayers, the satisfaction differs, the concentration varies, the pronunciation and phonetics vary, the emphasis varies; partly some of these being due to inward thoughts over which control becoming difficult and so also external disturbances that are beyond the performer. 

Day 14. Thursday 28 Dec. Day’s prayers began well. But were jolted after more than half the way.  Signals came all on a sudden to get out of the slumber of life. Got somewhat disturbed at the abruptness. But were well taken. Courageously. Not losing the composure. However, a lurking subconscious doubt arose as to what these signals will lead to and taking it as a similarity of a cursor of a foreshock of an earthquake. Thereafter, the prayers and the puja continued as usual with no further interruption. The whole experience was taken with the motive, after all the matter lies in the hands of HE/HER and why harp on it, or worry about it and the creators will tackle and take care of it.

Paid my regards, in brief, to Lalita Ammavaru for HER initiation and bringing to the stage of the present stage of the of thinking and pursuing with contentment and not seeking any favors than to help the continuation of prayers till the last breath assuring the same abruptness faced in the day’s prayers.

Day 15. Friday 29 Dec. This Friday happens to be Third Friday, since the summation of the beginning of the present experiences got initiated. The prayers of the day went beyond me with little participation from my side and the puja of two and half hours just flipped without my involvement. Such prayers only confirm my views of the helpful hands of Ammavaru in the daily prayers and the feeling of blessedness striking the mind with ever greatfulness and thankfulness.

I consider my daily prayers as my good fortune, reminding me of the genealogy imbibed from my childhood onwards with the daily recitations of my mother still ringing in me and making an impact on me; and which were picked eagerly and wholeheartedly by my wife after she joined me. Both of them encouraged me. But there was no direct interaction to the initiation of my prayers. I should say that the daily recitations in praise of Lalitha Ammavaru by them induced me considerably to take up the prayers on my own and pursue, and in a way they are the gurus without any formal introduction or initiation. Thus hearing the open and oral recitations tended to induce my participation. I have experienced similar inducement with respect to the prayers of Ayappaswami and Subrahmanyaswamy, as well as of Shiva.

Day 16. Saturday 30 Dec. The daily prayers progressed like any other day, in spite of a feeling of tiresomeness and a little surprising to the self. However, the prayers were without any break. But the degree of satisfaction derived was also diminished and this factor disturbed once or twice.

Subconsciously, prayer signals directed the using of this medium to express gratitude to the gurus who are regarded as Gurus. The suggestion is taken the right spirits and will find a place thankfully in due course before the completion of the daily sequence.

Day 17. Sunday 31 Dec. The last day of the year 2023 of the English Calendar. Prayers went well. Fulfilling. The day and the prayers went more energetically than the previous day.

Prayers were fulfilling in the sense that the thought process in the form of feedback was educative and even rewarding. The Signals indicated that just as one feels the hunger signals needing food to keep the biological system active and running by gathering the necessary energy to sustain life with its actions constructively and positively; in a similar manner, the daily prayers are necessary to inculcate the food to the ‘Aathma’ to generate rightful thinking, arrest any negative thoughts, and help the enhancement of  individuals confidence levels, and thereby giving him the sustenance and drive necessary his daily actions with positivity and usefully; besides elevating his spirits towards gaining uniformity in life with positive actions and the overall improvement of life. These signals are regarded as rewarding; and hope the readers find the information useful and appreciate the need for the daily prayers for any individual for the retention of a healthy mind necessary for healthy life.

Day 18. Monday 1 January 2024. The first day of the New Year. The day’s prayers and puja went well, in spite of hardly three hours of sleep last night. Major part of the prayers orally carried out were beyond me and my involvement, but kept me going till the completion deriving satisfaction.

This form of oral prayers instill an experience giving immense satisfaction that is difficult to describe for others. But suffice it to say that such prayers being oral cause audible vibrations in the environs of the house or place where the prayers are being carried out, improving the positivity of the place and people residing therein; apart from elevating the clarity in thinking and action filled with positivity ensuring peace of mind.

Day 19. Tuesday 2 Jan.  Prayers offer the means and the medium for the unification of the soul in the individual offering the prayers with the unseen external forces considered as almighty or the creator of life and the merger of the two forces through the sincere efforts of practice. The practice differs from person to person, each one finding his or her own ‘Ishta Daivam’ or deity of their liking that may come as family deity, or given or suggested by a Guru or Preacher.

Today’s prayers also went beyond my involvement and the directives of ‘Ammavaru’, although my prayers extend to several deities.

Day 20. Wednesday 3 Jan.  Day’s prayers were enjoyable. Very Satisfying giving contentment. Joy was fulfilling. Quite revealing and reminding that the prayers and puja could be done deriving satisfaction, it is the support of ‘Ammavaru’ creating the intent to do the prayers and puja, as well as the completion; clearly signifying the practice of expressing thankfulness to the creator in all the Hindu religious practices.no

Day 21. Thursday 4 Jan. The prayers were responsive. The light that glows even when both eyes are closed, but observable and experienced with its importance flashed as valuable; in that acting as a source linked to the aura of the individual doing the prayers and as well acting as a second medium for transference of energy; the first being the audio or sound source in open and oral recitations practiced regularly by the performer of the prayers, or even by the recorded sound sources making a larger impact in all those hearing thanks to the modern electronic devices like recorders, cell phones and combos like TV, AI devices like Met quest, Apple quest  etc. Both the energy sources emanating from the individual observing prayers being linked to the outside Nature offering the amalgamation of such prayerful energies. As of today these experiences are individualistic; and time and scientific advancements may perhaps one day lead to validate.

Day 22. Friday 5 Jan. Prayers progressed and were completed, in spite of feeling not energetic. As such, not able to write on any experiences of the day. Was somewhat disturbing and felt bad that I could not keep up the tempo with which my feelings in the form of personal experiences were initiated.

Day 23. Saturday 6 Jan. The Day’s prayers and puja were better than the previous day. One thing noticeable being the Degree of Satisfaction from prayers is not the same and varies day to day; perhaps linked to the state of the mind, his state of health, his surroundings, his environs that are nature dependent, besides external disturbances that are natural or human disturbances; going beyond the devotees control.

The above said factors governing prayers gave the feeling of expressing thankfulness to the Creator called Ammavaru for bringing this far guiding, correcting, and opening the rightful path of accepting ‘life as it comes’ and to continue laying emphasis on the ongoing days activities without the fear or worry of tomorrow or the future; being in the surrendered hands of HER.

Day 24. Sunday 7 Jan. Prayers were peaceful. No significant feedback. As per Telugu Calendar However, Lalita Ammavaru being our Family Deity, thought process centered to her visibility even when the prayers were for other deities; a revelation confirming the belief that God is one; even though ‘Ishta Devata’ may be different and varying. This feedback being unexpected was personally satisfying and making my daily prayers meaningful and thankful to HER guidance.

I need to write and acknowledge the support in the daily prayers from my wife Yellamraju Satyavati by way of reciting daily the ‘Thiruppavai Pasharams’ in Tamil that go with the Dhanurmasa Pujalu in praise of Goda Devi who won the association of Lord Krishna through her ardent and unstinted devotion of the Lord. The daily preparation of Prasad and its timely offering and the willing participation in the prayers by her strengthened meaningfully the efforts of both of us offering our salutations every morning.

Day 25. Monday 8 Jan. The early morning prayers before Sunrise proceeded as like any other day. The signals of the day reminded that when the soul is concentrating and completely involved fully in observing the prayers; the spurts of forgetfulness of the self and being in unison with the deity whose prayers are observed lead to a serene happy state of blissful experience called ‘Aananda’. It is this aananda that acts like a magnetic force on the individual performing the prayers captivating the continuation of prayers on a regular basis and regular times, establishing thereby a form of invisible bridge or bond between the real and the unreal, and between the visible and the invisible.

Day 26. Tuesday 9 Jan. Prayers continued. Peacefully. No flashes. No stray thoughts. No interruptions – inward or outward. No feedback.

As such, I am writing briefly how Dhanurmasa Pujalu entered my life. In my childhood days, on my visits to our Paternal Grandparents (Yellamraju Venkata Subbarao and Yellamraju Seethamma) during vacations, I noticed my grandmother getting up very early in the morning and offering prayers. On one such days, I noticed her interest with which she meticulously cleaned every morning the tiny idol of Lord Krishna in the crawling posture (say 20mm long and 10mm wide and decorated it with great care and then only initiated her prayers. This observation made an indelible impression on me and remained in the background subconsciously. In later years, as I grew up, I found none in our family inclusive of my parents were not observing Dhanurmasam. Around 1980 when I had built the first residential house, I had an inner urge to revive my paternal grandmothers practice and took up the early morning Krishna and Goda devi  prayers. The prayers got boosted with the interest of my wife who could recite the Thiruppavai Pasurams in Tamil. Incidentally, suffice it to say that the said Pasurams resulted in Tamil language from Goda Devi; whose mother tongue is Tamil; and who gained Lord Krishna through her ardent devotion and prayers of the lord.

Day 27.Wednesday 10 Jan. The day’s prayers coincided with Hunumath Jayanthi. Observed the normal daily anusthanam, followed by the Krishna and Goda prayers and also offered prayers to Hanuman without any interruptions.

The descriptions of the previous day acknowledged the inspiration due to the observation and listening of the Goda prayers offered by my paternal grandmother. I had similar inspirations from several individuals in my life span of nine decades enhancing my beliefs and experiences with positivity, confirming my views that satisfying prayers are possible through one’s own interest, when an intense internal unrest becomes a driving force to observe the prayers to any particular devatha or deity. I should say my decisions have been beneficial to attain peace and satisfaction.

I am no authority on what I have been describing in these daily logs enlisting my devotional experiences. But they are honest accounts of the feedbacks from my daily during the period covered.

I am convinced that Prayers can be classified as two types. One form of prayers that are classifiable as those done for specific purposes with the motivation of deriving benefits and these may be individualistic or even collective with participation of several people or devotees. The second form of prayers are solely carried out individually without any motives and requests and to satisfy the soul; purely to gain knowledge seeking the understanding  of the purpose of life and to tread the path of unification or merger with the creator. The second type believes the viewpoint that the creator is aware and knows the devotees actions and requirements and by and large my prayers followed this belief.

Day 28. Thursday 11 Jan. The prayers of the day were exceptionally good. Uniformly from the beginning to the ending no distractions. Happy. Very peaceful. Highly pleasing personally.  Immensely satisfying to the extent what else is desirable in one’s life.

The day’s prayers only strengthened my views of a regular exchange of energies between the inward and external, maintaining equanimity are responsible for such fulfilling prayers, made possible through unifying prayers that can be experienced with practice.

[This feedback from prayers resulted in confirming some of my personal views on computers and their application utility. We have to the reality of Main Frame, Desk Top, Lap Top, iPads, Cell Phones, Smart Phones. All these advances coupled with Research and Development in computation have given rise to Fast Computers, Super Computers, and Quantum Computers. The advances in Artificial Intelligence in conjunction with the computers of varied nature and varied capabilities are not only giving rise to large scale Robotics threatening humans and human activity; resulting in both progressive useful constructive activities, as well as threatening destructive activities; shaking humans from different angles due to the flood of a wide variety gadgets, instruments, toys, electronic arts and games, applied units for medical aid, agricultural aids, fire extinguishing aids, military aids. The use of drones, robots, driverless cars, manufacturing aids, maximizing aids and applications replacing humans and human activity are becoming a threat for existence.

In my view, computers may be classified as two types; Computers of the type described in the above paragraph as one type and which may be called the Non-Live Computers; and the Live Human Computers that are much older and which in fact helped the very evolution of the present day computers. Thus, the Live Humans and Human Computers are superior to the Non-Live Computers. The Non-Live lack decision making capacity, more mechanical in nature, or at best follow the already set rules and regulations set by humans, and the failure of the set software leading to failures or hazardous actions. These are obviated by Live Human Computers.

The usage of the words Live Human Computers is purposely used or coined for the simple reason since The Creater or Almighty incorporated The Biological Computer, with its Biological Chips, in the form of gifting The Mind to Humans; extendable to animals and other live beings gifted with the brain.

Therefore, The Live Human Computers are superior to the Non-Live Computers, the latter being created by the former, a fact that is undisputable. Besides this, the fastness, and the speed at which decision making for example for the activation of corrections to satellites for their orbits, monitoring the commands of distant inter-stellar man made instruments; or the speed with which one can imagine the placement of gadgets and their activation on the surface of the moon, or space stations, solar stations that have become practical and pragmatic; overtaking the Non-Live affirm the human superiority. These developments seem to have instigated intense research and developments to develop bio chips and progress appears to be making rapid strides.

Ages past, human nature has been to exploit the downtrodden and weaker sections of the society by those who are well off; likewise the rulers and administers in governments also fell in a like fashion to exploit. As a result, down the history, imperialism and imperialistic countries thrived plundering weaker countries and to gain at their cost to get rich and also exploiting humans.  So also slavery came into practice on a very large scale exploiting humans by using them as cheap labor force and even using them militarily.   This recap of the past is remembered, since the age of computers, AI, Chat Bots, Digital Governance, Digital Currency, A I based Weaponry are fast displacing conventionally long existing means; all of them and their exploitation replacing slaves and slavery. As such, Non-Live Computers have already become, or fast becoming the Slaves of the present Millennium.]

Note: The above [ ] can be an independent blog, perhaps. Ramita to decide after reading and editing as necessary.

Day 29. Friday 12 Jan. Prayers were smooth. Fulfilling beyond any measure. Sweet. Blissful. Happy. What is experienced is beyond me and my descriptions. Grateful to Ammavaru for HER mercy. May be, my gratitude, as inculcated by HER, in the form of the present Daily Logs is the only measure payable and expected of me; although I am not completely knowledgeable and being an ordinary devotee and a gruhast, and my prayers offered in my life span were governed by several restrictions and means. If I have done anything in my life, but for HER implied virtual hands helping me in my journey could not have moved even a straw. Learning and education are never complete and knowledge also ever growing and incomplete. But the aptitude and willingness, coupled with confidence on capabilities; as well as the determination and eagerness to do and to be active, and with the faculties SHE gave I could do and complete what I take up brought me this far.

Day 30. Saturday 13 Jan. The closing day of the present Dhanurmasa prayers and pujalu. Hence the last day for this series of logs described with my little knowledge on the matter logged. A recap of the thirty days logs appear to have moved in the direction of my attempts with prayers and pujalu to link ‘aatma’ with ‘paramatma’. They also appear to be inseparables, with possibly an exchange; of energies, and even mingling; and ultimately a merger of aatma with parmatma when a blissful state is attained to gain Moksha.

These logs depict my views resulting from personal experiences bestowed by prayers and pujalu as a Seeker of Truth and attempts to understand the Self and Nature (Ammavaru).